Thursday, February 01, 2007
Today after i flunk my isns paper, i went out with louis and cara and some other guys from louie's class.. all short shot and super ke ai... they are very nice and i am glad i know them .. anyway, these guys really can rock bugis... they shop the whole day there and wasn't a bit exhausted.. but me? my leg was aching as hell. I got some stuff too.. a gothic shirt and some plain colored t-shirts.. typical me.
After we accompany jie(one of louis's frenz) to buy his converse shoes at suntec and hang about a little while.. i parted ways with them... the walk to the esplanade bus stop was a long and hard one.. as i pass through every single street i thought of him again.. smoking my ciggerate, i waited for the crowded bus to reach my stop. Finally, it came.. i got on ... like a wandering soul with no aim.. sat down and just stared as the bus went by places and places filled with memories.. With a real break up, it happens.. Normal i guess. i reached my block, threw Away my 6 last ciggerate and decided not to think too much.. just rest.... than he msged me...
"the things i returned u bound back from the mail.. will return u by someone else.. " dadadada.... things that we have been through before... but now, i don't explain, i don't argue, i just let it be... piercing as your words are to me... my tears do not matter.. maybe to you , i left you for no reason.. i don't blame you.. you can't understand.. and listing it down for you.. i just can't do that anymore. so i chose acceptance.. whatever you told me... i wish you the best... hope she will treat you right and don't give you as much problem as me..
you can't trust me becoz i told you i still love you when we broke up... but i wasn't lying.. God knows that.. i don't have to explain myself to you for you to understand anymore.. i just need you to be happy and move on... maybe to you the only way of loving someone is to be with him/her.. but i have chose different.. i chose to love you by leaving you so we will both be less painful..
i yawned @ 11:46 PM;
