Monday, December 10, 2007
Haven't check in to my blog for a very long time. Been really busy with business and tablestudio band meetings. I really rarely get enough sleep and miss my friends a whole load. I feel like i haven't met everyone for quite sometime. Recently, grandpa fell ill and i went over to stay but during the weekend, i had too much sleep in the afternoon and i relunctantly went out at night to yishun to find dar dar in the middle of the night. My fear turned true as granny woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't find me. I feel really guilty and i wished i had taken my stand and not leave the house.
Naturally, the one who is the happiest is my evil aunt. Some of you should know. Now she has more things to say about me. She never fails to make my life miserable. She successfully make me quarrel with mummy. Since young i nv understood what she had to gain from me getting look down at, make me feeling horrible about myself and in a whole breaking up my relationship with the ones i love. Maybe i really did some horrible things to her in my pass life. I don't want to respect her and surely want to talk back to her and bash her but she is my aunt there is nothing i can do. I pray that i won't lose my family and crack my realtionship with my mother.
My silent dad, my brother that is always in the room or out... my mum was the only one i could turn to and yet now i could not turn to her anymore. Even shi hui is moving out of the neighbourhood. At this point in time, i really want to move out of my house and rent a room with shi hui. but it will break my mum's heart and i have no stable income yet. I really can't stand argueing with mummy coz it hurts me like a needle poking me inch by inch. haiz.. i don't know what to do.. can someone help me?
ps. congrates norain.. thanks for once being in my life
i yawned @ 1:44 PM;
