Monday, May 21, 2007
Woke up remembering a weird dream with tears flowing from my eyes. I mean its weird cause it happened so long ago.. but i guess it just remindered me of how it hurts.
This is what i dreamt..
Cara and i went into a classroom full of artworks in our poly apparrarently, and was walking around waiting for Dong Jin, Samantha, and Ade.. When Suddenly Yap Meng Step in. *This Alll has no link DJ, Ade , Sam is our sec school frenx* He started to pour in Sacastic words and was driving me nuts. Than Alvin came and and told us to scram... We started argueing and it felt like the club confrontation. Even in my Dreams, it just hurt a l0t. I started Crying Not knowing The Real alvin and having to argue like that.. i used to be able to talk to yap meng and stuff, but it just let me down when the misunderstanding happened. What an Ass he was being.. how the club was putting us in the spot, what nasty stuff out so call "frenz", people we were really close to were saying... asking us to burn in hell, get the hell back to zacf.. it was just painful.
So We left and the next thing i remember i turned up at home, in bed crying.. Than Alvin called to see if i am ok.. sometimes its just typical of him to do things like that.. Than he told me that i was too selfish to go to zacf chalet and not go camp thats why he turned out nasty with yap meng whenever we meet after the camp.... I was trying to explain but i gave up.. saying " Forget it You won't understand. Just let me lead my life as it is now.. without club and happy... i just don't see the real you.. I guess i was dumb to enough to like you last time" *eh it's a dream?!* than he was shock.. ask when and stuff... i hung up.. than i woke up with a aching heart..
i guess a small part of it still hangs on.. Cara and i had always put in so much in the club.. and not being in it.. well.. i still feel left out though i now have my group of fantastic frenx... it just ain't the same... the hurt is real.. but the memories i will always treasure for the short few months.. i still miss them.. i still miss him.. wondering how he is.. wondering what the club is doing and how r they managing.. miss the old cherokee.. the old mates thats nv turned nasty.... dumb =/
*a smile* i gotta go now to prepare for work.. this is my dumb dream
i yawned @ 8:57 AM;
