Saturday, October 07, 2006
i shouldn't be doing this to myself.. but still i went to see his blog..
i guess i couldn't really concentrate on studying.. don't know how you guys do it.. going on with your life like that.. i guess i am the weaker one..
i am trying to stop crying, trying to go back to my old life before you came in.. i don't know how i am goin to do it..but i will.. some things i never told you guys but i was most true to myself when i am with you two.. you guys are pillars that really held me up when i had problems in my family.. when God took away people precious to me.. now you are gone and half my world crash down.. i have to hold it up on my own now..
i just wanna say... you said you will be strong and i wish you really will ..
not the same person.. well.. i can see that as blury as my eyes have become..
i will not bother you again.. i will not cry over you very soon.. i wish you a good life.. even without us..
even without you.. i too.. wish i could have a good life too.. at least i will try.. trying now.. and even if i'm gone.. years down the road or maybe just moments away.... i will never forget you.. i guess its acceptance i'm trying to achieve .. not forgetting.. cause i won't bear .. memories are all i have of you.. good bye my friend.. don't know if this will reach you.. but its all i can do now.. going everywhere i'm reminded of you.. i am still trying to look for the courage to go out to tthe places we went to.... i'll miss you
smile from your heart... don't hide yourself from the ones who wants to be there for you.. i'm trying to do that too
i yawned @ 5:43 PM;
