Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Never thought that my new post will be unhappy...
Somehow i have lost my smile at heart..
Today Cara and i tried to give Felix a surprise by singing happy birthday to him in class with a cake but in the end everyone just stared at us in awe.. so very embarassing..thats the first disappointment.. We really tot the class would have sang with us... well.. guess everyone is a little too stunned to do anything (>.<)
Than i met up with tommy today after school.. complete gentleman.. very nice guy.. but stupid jing wei pang seh us.. haix.. Than there is the cock up .. meet up with cheug seng than two way run.. big misunderstanding.. he go to dhoby gaut, we say meet somerset.. than later we ask him go cityhall.. but he go somerset find us.. he got so angry lor.. but luckily we managed to make him happy again hehe... so scare lor..just hate misunderstandings.. this is a summary of my day la.. but whats so sad? well.. let me just say i couldn't get THE TALK Cara and i had with matt *fake name.. u know who u r* out of my brain.. After seeing his blog.. i know i need to post this poem up... Never for a single moment have "how is matt doin.. is he ok?" left my mind.. haix.. just cannot sleep .. so might as well.. i don't know la. i can do nothing just cry lor i guess
Do we mean nothing to youWith hopes and Joy we came ahead.
With cold touches, we were greeted.
With words as ice, you asked us:
"Why are you here? i'm fine now"
But can't you see why we have come?
we just want no acting when you're in chains..
just let go, cry if you must..
scold us! beat us ! cry if you must..
at least we'll feel better, you will too..
We know your emotions and can comfort you..
there's no need for words..
no need for explanations..
just don't bottle up inside your shell..
Act and tell us you are fine..
cause we are friends.. we do know..
faking or not.. its clear and it shows..
i do understand you are protecting us..
From your cruel facts of your cruel past..
but as i said "Your cruel past"
It is the PAST.. Ended and passed..
so why hurt yourself as such?
Dun you know unconsciously you are hurting us?
A thousand knives twist and turn..
on our hearts they bleed and burn..
More than usual..
more than ever..
hiding urself doesn't protect us.. it Never..
So can you see it now?
Clearly and shiny now?
we hate it when u mask yourself
let us share your burden as well
it makes us feel better!
best favour u can help?
take care of yourself..
So my dear friend do you get it now?
i yawned @ 12:26 AM;
